Thursday, August 25, 2011

And the beat goes on...

The night before last I went to sleep early and then awoke suddenly and couldn't go back to sleep. I decided since I was up I might as well be useful and not just lay there. I had been up for a while doing some housework (keep in mind this was around 2am) and all of a sudden I hear "Mommy! Mommy! I trying to find you." So I went to find Pierson climbing out of bed, favorite stuffed animal securely tucked under his arm. I picked him up and put him back in bed and took full advantage of the opportunity to cuddle with my baby. As we lay there I thought he was almost asleep. Then that tiny little arm came straight up in the air and tightly wrapped itself around my head and pulled it to his chest. I heard the most beautiful sound. Thud, thud, thud, thud, thud, thud.... what an especially beautiful sound that was. I just left my head there for a long time, listening intently to that beautiful blessed sound. Thud, thud, thud, thud. It was so strong. I just prayed over my boy and his heartbeat. I praised God for his heart beat. It sounds so strong. It was then I remembered what I had prayed for when I was pregnant with Pierson. I would place my hand on my belly and ask God that this baby would have a heart that beats to praise You. I got that line from a song by Christian artist Big Daddy Weave "Audience of One".  That line of the song resinated strongly with me. I remember talking to Jeff about that while I was pregnant. Talking about how I just wanted this baby to fall madly and deeply in love with Jesus and have a heart that beated to praise Him. Never ever ever did I dream that my prayer would revealed in such a literal way. That sweet little thud, thud, thud, thud is a living breathing testament to God. It always has been, from conception. I think most people take a beating heart for granted unless it's in a person who has had heart trouble. Each little beat of that heart is a praise to our Lord. What a beautiful song it is. Others who know Pierson's story or the story of any heart kiddo for that matter don't take his beating heart for granted either.
As believers, and parents who want to raise our kids in Christ, we pray that God will use our children in mighty ways. That's actually a really scary thing to pray. Use my child, Lord. Let him do great things for your kingdom. That's just horrifying! We don't have a say in how God uses our children. You're holding this gift out in your hands and offering it up to the Lord. Relinquishing control. While we never would have chosen this way for Pierson or for our family it has been beautiful to see how God has used him and in turn, us. If even one person's heart is softened for the Lord, if one person can point to Pierson's healing and say "that's God" then He has been glorified. We praise Him for that.
For those of you who have been asking how Pierson is doing, there is one word: Fantastic! You would never know there was anything ever wrong with this kid. He started preschool 3 days a week Monday. It's the same school he's been at for early childhood now he is moved up to the big kid building that houses preschool-kindergarten. Yep, we're in the big leagues now! They're pretty hardcore at this school and P is already thriving in it. They started learning to write their names this week. Can you believe that? He's 3!!!! Bring it. I think he can handle the challenge. Along the same lines of school, this meant a change in our routine. I had to be at work before 8 for a meeting this morning so we left our house earlier than normal. I got him to school with plenty of time to spare, he went right in and started playing and off to work I went. I got to the building next to ours and all of a sudden it hit me: I DIDN'T GIVE P HIS BLOOD PRESSURE MEDICINE! I popped the quickest u-turn safely possible and headed back to the house. I called my administrator on the way back home and told her what I had done. She was dropping her daughter off at school and was so gracious. I think I must have told her "I can't believe I did this! I feel like such a bad mom!" about 3 times. So I ran in to my house and then back up P's school medicine in hand. I was drawing up his dose as I was walking down the hallway to his classroom. It was only 15 minutes past his regular dose at this point (not even close to the danger zone) but I was still beside myself. P's class was getting seated for breakfast when I snuck in. Pierson spotted me and said in a quasi indignant voice "Mommy. What are you doing here?" Apparently I had invaded his school world. I gave him his medicine really quickly and then left. He went back to his activity like nothing had ever happened. Yeeesh. Later that day one of the nurses I work with said "heard you forgot to give Pierson his heart medicine this morning." I bemoaned this and said how bad I felt. She said my administrator had said how I had said I felt like a bad mom. My nurse friend said "You're not a bad mom. You would have been a bad mom if you hadn't gone back and given him his medicine." Can I tell you how much better I felt when she said that? I had been kicking myself that entire morning about my mistake. I needed those words. Oh yeah, I never made it to that meeting.
In Other News:
- It's almost time for us to go to Disney World! Yae! We are all beyond excited to get there and have some
   celebrate and relax time. Wooohoo! We have something very special for Pierson the night we eat at
   Chef Mickey's.
- Pierson and I have been running races around the house a lot lately. A couple weeks ago when we were  
   running something in the back of my knee popped. Finally got that checked out by an ortho doc and it
   seems I have torn my meniscus. Praying that we can avoid surgery. Our insurance company loves us right
   now I'm sure.
- Pierson has been swimming a lot lately and almost has his strength back in the pool. We're putting him back
   in lessons soon
- He has been growing like a weed! He is moving in to 5T clothes and is officially a size 11 shoe! We're not
   sure if we just happened upon a growth spirt or if this whole having a fully functioning heart thing is finally
   allowing his body to grow to its full potential or what. We saw Dr. Adams the other day and she
   remarked his growth spirt. She said he's always been a bigger kid and it's kinda scary to think that was
   him not growing to his full potential. Very thankful that I could have a 6'3" heart baby some day.
- I'm praying about a way to help contribute to 3 congenital heart charities that have touched my heart. God
   has placed that way on my heart. Pray for his hands over mine as I embark on that adventure.
- Please keep praying for P's heart that the heart muscle will not be thick on our next cardiology visit in  
   October. We are getting closer to weaning him from his bp meds. Pray that goes smoothly.
- And in other news we literally just had a very special visitor come to our house! At 6:30 in the morning!
  We have developed a very special relationship with our recycling truck man, Mr. Art. He has let Pierson
  look inside of his truck before, always says "hi". We have baked him cookies. He just came by -- not
  even on a trash day -- and brought Pierson his very own model recycling truck! I tore Pierson out of bed
  and brought him to the door! He went from comatose to beside himself with joy in a matter of 30 seconds!
  We do so love Mr. Art our recycling man! It's the little things that you do for someone that make a huge
  impact on others life. Thank you God for Mr. Art!
God continues to bless us. He is good. May our hearts always beat to praise You.

P playing with his new treasure from our recycling man, Mr. Art
He loves it!

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